what.the.heck

lover has been invited to his best friends bachellor party. in Catalina. for an entire weekend. here's the... "what the heck" part.
his best friend is gay. there will be gays and single women going. 


should i be concerned? (not about the gays, about the single women).
ugh.
dislike this situation.


part of me thinks i should be stoked, that instead of strip clubs, they'll be spending quality time together.  but the other part of me thinks - why can i not attend, if these other single [straight] females are going. (oh right, because i'm not as close with this guy as they are). (because i haven't been in the picture for as long as they have). (because i am not a best friend, just a friend, and just the girl friend of the best friend). UGH.


what am i suppose to feel?  because right now i am just feeling unsure about this whole thing.  can i go camping with a group of lesbians and single men? would that be appropriate, as long as it was a "very special once in a life time" event? 


the worst part of it all - he cannot miss this. that's not the worst part, the worst part is that his best friends "family" has completely turned their back on him since his 'coming out'. so yeah. does mylover go, to support his best friend, and be there for him when no one else is?