as of today

3 jobs...
whole foods market thousand oaks,
caring for a 9 year old, named alex,
avon representative. (www.youravon.com/bmcvay)

paying down the debt.

finding self.

living life for what it is.

... and feeling alive.

get.in.it

two jobs.
whole foods market thousand oaks
&
camarillo airport.
working on a third.

what a rollercoaster this life is.

gonna work my booty off.
get free.
and get into the world.
not of the world, but in the world.

xo

dearest

california,

you weren't what i was expecting when i came back into your life. it had been so long. in fact i was a little dissapointed. but upon exploring parts of you that i previously adored, you have proven yourself once again. i fear my love/hate relationship with you will have a pretty deep impact on me at this point in my life. but i know that you are where i am suppose to be. and so we walk, hand in hand, you and i.

i do love you, and i think i will stay for awhile..
until the wind carries me to it's next destination.

forever yours,
berni mcvay


listening to:
coldplay
'we never change'
Iwanna live life, never be cruel,
I wanna live life, be good to you.
I wanna fly, never come down,
And live my life, And have friends around.
We never change, do we?
We never learned to leave,
So I wanna live in a wooden house,
I wanna live life, always be true,
I wanna live life, and be good to you,
I wanna fly, and never come down,
And I live my life, and have friends around.
We never change do we?
No, no,We never learned to bleed,
So I wanna live in a wooden house,
Making more friends would be easy.
O I don't have a show to say,Yes, and I sing every single day,
We never change do we?We never learned to leave.
So, I wanna live life in a wooden house,
Making more friends would be easy,
I wanna live where the sun comes out.

carpe diem

While we're talking, envious time is fleeing: seize the day, put no trust in the future

breath life in.

british.columbia

canada was great.
i wasn't able to sleep out in the wilderness
but i did snowshoe deep into the back country of mt seymour.
for an ENTIRE day.

i checked out vancouver
but didn't get any pictures.
was raining too much.

hiked through lynn valley.
beautiful







mt seymour.









met some incredible people. listened and told great stories. left the country with some beautiful insight.
.......and so i begin
a new walk.

into.the.wild

leaving for the great canadian wilderness tomorrow morning.
4 days in the wild.
solo.
exhilarating.

love you all.so much.
-berni

"i now walk.. into the wild"

morning.shoot